Thank you for the memories.
Because even all the money in the world can't buy fate. (:

I really didn't know I would lose you.
I put all my faith and trust thinking we would last to the very last day of our lives.
You ever told me you never ever ever want to lose me too. You also told me you never ever wanted to break up with me. I smiled to myself when you said that because I knew that this life, that person was you. Now, I don't know when you are speaking the truth, which words exactly comes out from your heart. I totally believed in you and I felt the same way too. Well, at least I thought I felt the same way as you. You make me doubt people now for what they say. And sometimes no matter how hard I try to, I can hardly trust what people say anymore.
It's already been 3-4 (?) months, I don't bother counting already. Last time, I counted days reminding me of how wonderful life was, our 100th day, 200th day. (: Today is actually 257th day since I met you. But all these are not important now.
What I want in life is really very simple, I really don't want friends who come and go. If you do, I would rather be alone, forever then feel the hurt. They seldom stay for long. SO! Those who are friends for like 10, 20 years. I'm jealous of you. You guys are so lucky. (:
Alright, I shouldn't make those who care for me upset. I will smile. :D
Today is a special day! (aL ^^)

I rather leave this life because I know I won't be able to be with you anymore.
I'd rather end this suffering and meet you next life again.
Even if I don't, well, there is still a possibility.

I really can't stand missing you so much.

Without you, I wouldn't know how much I could miss a person.
Even though you were right before me.
All I could see, is that we are miles apart.
I miss how you brought a smile on my face every single time you texted me.
For all of them were different but they never failed to make me happy.

I really miss you, I truly do.
I don't mind if you don't know, because what's left of you now in my life is just what's in my heart.

the end

Now it's only left with me.
You got over me and if I don't, I will be the only one suffering.

I wish you all the best and forever happiness. This is an end to a fairytale, end of all those dreams.
I'm partly happy cuz I feel a heavy load of my chest and maybe, my heart is starting to mend. However, I'm devastated that once again, I lost someone so important to me when I thought we were much stronger than what we are now.

Thank you for being part of my life. You changed me, my life, for the better (:

I hate waking up everyday because I have to face the reality that I'm no longer with you.
I miss you, I miss all those messages I miss how we updated each other with our lives.

It hurts my heart so much when I finally realized this life it's impossible to be with you anymore.

2011 is coming to an end. I learnt much this year.

Someone told me everything happens for a reason.
I thought about that. Thought and thought.
Isn't it miraculous that you are already in someone's life even if in the smallest way possible?
We ARE one in a billion. Meeting another one in a billion, it's a miracle.
That's why I always treasure my friends who are dear to me.

But, most of the times, I end up getting hurt. Over and over.
I am glad, of course that they entered my life.
Every single one of them, for you changed me for the better.
I will grow stronger, strong enough to withstand future challenges.

I, have to thank you. For being you.
The friends that I made this year are especially special to me.
I would do anything to make sure they are happy through the darkest of times
Like how you were when I was.

I'll never wanna lose any one of you.

2011 thought me that it takes two hands to clap. If not one party will get hurt.
Nobody is to blame it's precisely because one party cares more than the other.
I learnt to take a step back and watch and listen. Maybe I wasn't important to some at all.
Then, I would slowly leave their lives only wishing them to be showered with happiness everyday.
But I would always remember the happy memories forever etched in my heart.

I would not have regretted anything when I looked back next time. For it gave me this special feeling that I doubt I would find
this entire life. You thought I got over, but I haven't. But I know you did and you're happy.

I guess that's all I hope and pray for- your happiness.

2011- a year of finding true friends, a year I will never ever forget.