I really didn't know I would lose you.
I put all my faith and trust thinking we would last to the very last day of our lives.
You ever told me you never ever ever want to lose me too. You also told me you never ever wanted to break up with me. I smiled to myself when you said that because I knew that this life, that person was you. Now, I don't know when you are speaking the truth, which words exactly comes out from your heart. I totally believed in you and I felt the same way too. Well, at least I thought I felt the same way as you. You make me doubt people now for what they say. And sometimes no matter how hard I try to, I can hardly trust what people say anymore.
It's already been 3-4 (?) months, I don't bother counting already. Last time, I counted days reminding me of how wonderful life was, our 100th day, 200th day. (: Today is actually 257th day since I met you. But all these are not important now.
What I want in life is really very simple, I really don't want friends who come and go. If you do, I would rather be alone, forever then feel the hurt. They seldom stay for long. SO! Those who are friends for like 10, 20 years. I'm jealous of you. You guys are so lucky. (:
Alright, I shouldn't make those who care for me upset. I will smile. :D
Today is a special day! (aL ^^)