2011 is coming to an end. I learnt much this year.

Someone told me everything happens for a reason.
I thought about that. Thought and thought.
Isn't it miraculous that you are already in someone's life even if in the smallest way possible?
We ARE one in a billion. Meeting another one in a billion, it's a miracle.
That's why I always treasure my friends who are dear to me.

But, most of the times, I end up getting hurt. Over and over.
I am glad, of course that they entered my life.
Every single one of them, for you changed me for the better.
I will grow stronger, strong enough to withstand future challenges.

I, have to thank you. For being you.
The friends that I made this year are especially special to me.
I would do anything to make sure they are happy through the darkest of times
Like how you were when I was.

I'll never wanna lose any one of you.

2011 thought me that it takes two hands to clap. If not one party will get hurt.
Nobody is to blame it's precisely because one party cares more than the other.
I learnt to take a step back and watch and listen. Maybe I wasn't important to some at all.
Then, I would slowly leave their lives only wishing them to be showered with happiness everyday.
But I would always remember the happy memories forever etched in my heart.

I would not have regretted anything when I looked back next time. For it gave me this special feeling that I doubt I would find
this entire life. You thought I got over, but I haven't. But I know you did and you're happy.

I guess that's all I hope and pray for- your happiness.

2011- a year of finding true friends, a year I will never ever forget.

Christmas can be a lonely time 
whether you are young or old. 
Christmas can be lonely at times no matter young or old.
Others went to parties 
that I never got an invitation to. 
Even as I got older, 
the invitations were never there. 
I always went out on my own 
and watched from a distance at others having fun. 
No presents. No hugs.
Sometimes I could feel the tears welling up inside at being on my own especially at Christmas time. Especially when my love of my life left me this year.
If we didn't break up, I will probably by his side now.
They say it's all about love. I feel none at all.
I guess he's happy somewhere out there. Which makes part of me happy too.
If only he knew how much I think about him all the time. If only.
Always as Christmas appears no matter how happy I feel, 
I still remember 
those lonely ones I spent on my own.

I will always remember this year, 2011. The year I learnt what was trust, what love really means. How is it like to be there. Heartbreak.